2009 (and reflections…)
from amateursketch archives; December 31, 2008 (reflections in bold, July 30, 2010.)
I am always unreasonably hopeful on NYE. On this particular day, that hope feels epic—blame our new President (there are no words!!) or the return of Rylan or my recent graduation. For some reason, the Mary Tyler Moore theme song and beret toss seems appropriate. This was an incredibly difficult evening. Rylan returned that night. Despite being at opposite ends of the state (and meeting up weeks later,) I knew it wasn’t going to work out. But it didn’t matter, my mind was centered on a boy in a V-neck sweater in California.
I wish you all a lifetime of health, productive bowel movements, satisfying friendships and orgasms, travel and productivity, peace and pancakes. I still wish those things for all of you.
I am not a fan of resolutions so I never make them, but I do have a list of desires that I would like to share.In 2009, I hope to…
read more (I haven’t.)
reject complacency (I do, most of the time.)
work on my art (for you…actualizing your passions?) (Definitely have not worked on “my art” but I have actualized my passions and THAT FEELS FABULOUS.travel. often. with all of you. (I would settle for some of you.) (A desire that will never subside.)
correspond more with those who are not present in my day-to-day (Terrible with this but it seems less important.)
work on my health…recognize my fallibility, deal and act accordingly. (Work in progress.)
calm my ass down. nothing (or few things) is (are) THAT serious. (Anthony has helped with this tremendously.)
put myself first more often. I don’t condone selfishness, but one deserves to be the star of their own existence. (“You love me, you REALLY love me.” This is my only comment.)
save money. because its a smart thing to do. (I am actually doing this and it’s going swimmingly. I have actual goals that WE are working toward with great success. This is our primary focus so that we can shift from slaves to credit to members of the cash economy, free of debt and living on our own terms.)
cook more often. (Every day. Love it.)
dedicate myself to relationships that are fulfilling. rid myself of those that are not. (Duh. December 31, 2010. Otherwise, I miss my friends.)
stand up for myself. exercise my power of “no.” (No real need to do this anymore but I do fully exercise that power when I have to. I’m a big kid now.)
perfect my french toast recipe. (It was already perfect.)
serve humanity in a way that my President, my mother and the universe would approve of. (Sigh. Still a priority. Not doing this and it breaks my fucking heart.)
find a job that satisfies me and the desire above. (Oh god. No comment.)
Love to all of you. Fucking rock out tonight…I send you e-kisses at midnight and in general. Besos para siempre.
